Betrayal, treason, disloyalty, treachery, sedition,
the hateful thoughts and words running through your mind,
the horrid images plaguing you day and night.
the trust you finally gave, the love you did not save,
all was trashed and looted with a single moment.  
And what will become of us now, my love?
        
I long for thing to be the same,
to wake up in the morning feeling your love surround me.
today I wake up with a sick feeling in my heart,
and a head with no way to turn.

where is the antidote that would save us both?
what sort of disease have I given you now?
for I know that  you will always feel
a hundred times the worst.

your love for me it never wavered,
a steady beam of light into my hole of unending darkness.
my feelings forever blown about with a fickle wind,
a single flame flickering against the dark.

you gave me strength, you gave me hope,
you showed me worlds I never dreamed of existing,
and pleasures not yet conceived.

I never made it up to you for the things that I had done,
the pain, ecstasy, what ever I felt like giving you,
you took it through with no complaining.

forever haunted with the image of me and another.
and I was right there telling it to you,
all the things, you prayed would never happen
all the things, you hoped to never hear.

     what horrors will arrive next?
     the loss of lovers, the pain and fears?
     The horrible dreams? The empty years…

sorry has not cut it for a while now
yet it keeps being said.
"I love you" has always stood for something more
but now it just flops to the ground, dead.

     Words misused to many times,
     devoid of meaning,
     never to thrill,
     words misused to many times.

now we have given each other the world,
there is nothing more, in the end we just take things back.
Yet no matter how much we gain,
I doubt either of us will come though this whole.

your trust has been broken one to many times.
the love we once shared is torn and shredded,
covered by the anguish, the questions, and the word...
CHEATED.